I have officially been on this journey of motherhood for 50 months now, and hands down March 2013 will go down as the most difficult yet! It seemed like it would start well, Jonathan and I had a fun date night planned for his birthday at the Rocket's game (which they won). But then, we got home only to hear a terrible seal sounding cough...
By Monday, (our first dr. appt of the month) Titus and Levi both had croup. Within a few days I caught a cold too. We all seemed to recover okay, but by the following week Levi's had settled in again this time in the ears!! After dr. trip #2 double ear infection confirmed, and antibiotics had begun.
The very day after he finished his medicine, Luke and Titus both caught a bug which, you guessed it, settled in their ears. So, dr. trip #3 revealed, 3 out of 4 of those precious little ears also had infections. So....2 more rounds of antibiotics.
Then, just 2 days later Levi caught the absolute worst virus I have ever seen. Sudden onset, HIGH (104+) fever, vomiting, and sore throat that looked like, but as confirmed by dr. visit #4 was not, strep.
As I confessed to Jonathan last night, I am mentally and physically worn out. I hate seeing my little ones sick, and then on top of MANY sleepless nights, fussy kids (and a fussy mom), and keeping track of temperatures & medicine dosages I have simply described our state as "survival mode!"
Several times over the course of the month, God has put Matt. 11:28 on my heart "Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." While I was pulling for that to mean that my kids would sleep better at night, that hasn't been the case. Instead, it has been a constant reminder where my hope and strength actually can be found.
Today, things are looking up. No one is running fever and SO FAR no one else has caught Levi's virus. To make things even sweeter, in my time with the Lord this afternoon, God showed me this passage from Ps. 73:23-26.
"Nevertheless, I am continually with you; you hold my right hand. You guide me with wise counsel, and afterward you will receive me to glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."
My heart and my flesh WILL fail (often), but I'm so grateful that I don't have the strength to persevere in my own flesh. What gives my heart the desire to keep going, even in rough months, is so not me! Hear me loud and clear, God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever!!
So...hello April, we at the Brooks house are so glad you are here!!
P.S. I promise cute kid pictures next post! ;)
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